By Ashish Seth
“Anger and Pain in the Subway Train” – Mick Harvey
The morning star through a chain mesh window after a sleepless night makes the lack of sleep seem worth it. I saw the sky at the end of the horizon begin to glow blue and then red as the sun peaked its head out. Some of the houses facing in my direction from the window, away from the horizon, were still shrouded in the withering night. But where the morning star hung, the sky around it was already pierced a sickly dark blue, disturbing the eerie ghostly veil of the night sky with the optimism of a new day.
By Ashish Seth
You wake up at six. You go to the bathroom, piss, brush, drink some water. You go to the computer and for the next hour, you go to a website where you keep clicking “search” to see if there are any jobs available. You click search and it says “No jobs available”. You click search again to refresh the page and it gets pissed off at you and delays your next search by a timer of 11 seconds, 20 if it’s really pissed or if the server is over clogged. Meanwhile you put the phone beside you, waiting for the “On-call”, with the ringer low enough so you don’t wake anybody. While you wait you inevitably surf the web. You type low on the keyboard if it makes too much noise. You sit in the dark as too much light will eventually wake you up but the computer monitor is bright enough so by the time it’s 7:00 AM and you have no job, you’re fully awake when its time to go back to sleep.
Ashish Seth