He keeps me sane.
By Ashish Seth
“There is no best. Only better.”
A flower sprouts and blossoms. The sunshine radiates energy into it. Once the flower’s petals, a dark lipstick red, blossom out as far as they can, a bumble bee with yellow and black stripes lands on one of the petals. It creeps inside the fragile shell casing of the petals in slow movements and starts pollinating the flower. The whole process is like sex. After it’s finished pollinating the flower, the bee buzzes away. For a while the sky is blue and the sun shines but over a course of some time, dark dense grey clouds come from the east and cover up the sun. A mountain overlooks the field upon which this and many other flowers sprout. Thus, slowly the rain clouds build. Thunder shakes the ground. Lightning strikes in the distance at the edge of the horizon, where the land meets the sea. And then, everything becomes calm. Calm. A soft flutter of wind breezes the flower. Its petals shake, like armor plating. They unhinge. Loosen up. The green stem of the flower bends as the wind gets stronger and the sky gets darker. And in the sea of flowers, all of them are silent. All of them wait.
A droplet of rain hits a petal of the flower. The drop of water seeps in between the petals and goes into the flower. More droplets fall from the dense sky and soon all the petals on the flower are soaked, the rain water bleeding a darker hue of red, making some petals opaque, filling their veins, bursting their organs, making them droopy. Some flowers in the field of flowers will be smitten down by the rain, stamped to the ground and into the soil. Some flowers may even be severed from their roots, chopped in half at the stem. All of them will let loose some of their petals, even the ones that survive the onslaught; there will be an incredible blowing of petals and pollen in the direction of the wind, and for a while at a certain time and place on a certain position on the face of the earth, there will be nothing but the site of petals moving across the wind like locusts in the desert. A mass of red across the plain.
Our precious flower did not survive this onslaught. Instead, the pollen became a passenger to the wind and traveled across to the other side of the mountain. And by a river, around some trees, perhaps beside a bush, another flower of red petals will bloom.
By Ashish Seth
Walked down Bramalea street, kept my phone out of the rain, followed the trail of coffee cups, a plaza in the distance. Saw a dead bird on the curb covered by a McDonalds brown bag, reached Brampton hospital instead, went inside and started following signs, saw a man in a stretcher with his head cracked, bleeding, kept asking his brother to check his phone for emails. Finally got to the main entrance and had a double double with some grapes and waited for my father’s Honda Accord.
Ashish Seth
You wake up at six. You go to the bathroom, piss, brush, drink some water. You go to the computer and for the next hour, you go to a website where you keep clicking “search” to see if there are any jobs available. You click search and it says “No jobs available”. You click search again to refresh the page and it gets pissed off at you and delays your next search by a timer of 11 seconds, 20 if it’s really pissed or if the server is over clogged. Meanwhile you put the phone beside you, waiting for the “On-call”, with the ringer low enough so you don’t wake anybody. While you wait you inevitably surf the web. You type low on the keyboard if it makes too much noise. You sit in the dark as too much light will eventually wake you up but the computer monitor is bright enough so by the time it’s 7:00 AM and you have no job, you’re fully awake when its time to go back to sleep.
Ashish Seth
Some people just want to be told they’re right.